Swim Training

Whilst my classmates sleep peacefully in their warm beds, I am swimming, exhausted in the smelly pool at Chinese International School. I don't know why, but my swimming capabilities seem to be deteriorating, although they were already quite bad before. I just don't understand why we can't do training sometime after school, instead of having to be dragged out of a warm bed on a cold morning. It's very frustrating, and unhealthy for the sleep-deprived like me. On the rare occasion when I am fast at swimming, I feel good for the rest of the day. But most of the time, I am upset due to my poor and slow speed. My fastest time for 50meter freestyle is 40 something seconds, whereas my classmates and fellow swimmers have slowest times of 18. As I said, it's hard being the slowest and fattest girl on the team, because I am pushed even harder than the rest of the girls. I get tired after 50 meters of swimming, when my fellow swimmers can last at least 8 laps. It's very sad for me, and for them. When we do relay practices, I slow the whole team down, creating tension and hatred when we lose. I really hope I can either pull out, or magically increase my speed instead of clogging up the lane with my cellulite.